My husband has been through hell and back with me, but he still loves me and never leaves. I do feel awful for treating him this way, but when I get dysphoric, I can't help but be a B!tch to him.

I have to learn how to not to do this to him, but it is so difficult to treat anyone nice when you are in this state.

I guess, just telling him that you do love him as often as possible just may help. I tell my husband I love him about 3 to 4 times a day.