i have seen a counselor recently about what has happened but i dont feel a great connection with her, and am a little afraid to tell her what i am really feeling, so i find before i can stop myself, telling her the things she wants to hear. like you know i'm progressing really well, and that i am getting over it. she makes me a little uncomfortable, like she wants me to be better so she can move onto the next more deserving case.
its hard too as i am not very good at talking about it and tend to use my poetry and songs but she refuses to hear it, i try to tell her i'm not ready to deal with 'straight talking' about what happened but shes not interested. i kinda feel obligated to "get over it" has anyone been through anything similar? in terms of not clicking with the counselor?
how do i manage, do i just convince her i am ok and leave it at that? the problem is that she is free, i cant afford to go to another one outside the college, there are others at the service but how do i face going in there to possibly see her in the foyer? any ideas?