It's very true, i am mean to everyone around me when i am depressed, my husband told me today that he dreads coming to pick me up from work...he said i'm unpleasant to be around and i am never happy. It's actually very true i'm very unhappy...and i am making those around me just a miserable as i am...my question is...how can i stop...i love my husband but i know i tell him several times a day that i hate him....i want him to be happy but i yell at him and get mad at him all the time...of course i am no fun to be around..i never want to do anything...i just want to lay in my bed and sleep forever. To be honest part of me wants everyone around me to be as unhappy as i am...so they know what it feels like...but they wont ever know..they cant...and i just end up feeling worse for making the only person in this world who cares about me...miserable.
Of course it's 2am and he's sleeping like a baby...how fitting i'm up torturing myself over how horrible i am. The worst part of it all...the absolute worst...is that it's true...if anyone treated me like i treat people....i would cut them out of my life in a heartbeat.

Anyone else a horrible ***** to everyone they love?