Hi Sketch37,
I understand completely how you feel, the first time I was on meds for depression I felt very uncomfortable about it. i kept at it for two years and they were really working well. However when i came off them - under Drs supervision, I had six good months and then it came back with a vengeance. I was competely zocco, and had three different meds before anything started to work. Another two years or so later, things had settled down, and after a great summer holiday i decided off my own batt to chuck them out.. I really dont like putting chemicals into my body....
Sadly that backfired awfully, I became completely withdrawn, and my partner had terrible trouble trying to get me back to the Doc and the T. There followed a really dark year of so before I got to feeling even half human and functional again.
So even if you really have things against it, if the meds are working for you stick with it and put all your doubts back in the cupboard.
Good luck and I shall keep looking out for you here.

Alg