I just reeally need to vent right now!
I have been extremely happy the past couple of day, not manic but genuinly happy. My psych told me if my mood swings get really out of control i might have to go to therapy or take medication and i think shes talking about being bipolar.....

Im in a relationship with a guy, not dating but something close to it and today Im having a reallllly low day and im crying just think about how I dont wanna put this kinda of crap on him and his life....

What if I am bipolar.... ill never have a real stable functioning relationship. I am prepared to work my *** of but I dont wanna put that kind of responsibility on someone else ya know?

Ive just been looking at articles about dating people with bipolar disorder and im just crying and having a bad night. He got on and were talking and it getting better but I just have this huge shadow of guilt hovering over me knowing ive gotten myself to deep now and no mattter what I do to try and help him form getting hurt, I will most likely end up hurting him anyway......