Hey there, Sounds as if your doing really good. So yeah maybe you did self medicate before to help carry the bagage but now you just want to get rid of it. Thats pretty awsome for someone just starting out on this journey! Don't worry about apologizing about lauguage here, we all started out not knowing what it ment and learned as we went along. Your sister thats going though her own journey sounds like a good possible resourse, like Rose said start slow, and just because you told the T no family at this time, doesn't mean you can't change your mind later. Even if your sister and you didn't do anything together growing up you could get useful info and so could she. Thats the great thing about thearapy theres no right or wrong in the process it's self. and you can change your mind when you want. It's your journey, you hold the reins, have a good one you are off to a good start!