beauflow speaks one of those inconvenient truths: " . . . then a glimpse came to me . . . I will have to deal with this the rest of my life . . . " We are not here, not most of us, anyway, to work out an "adjustment disorder" and move on, having put it behind us. Like beau, "I don't want to be like this the rest of my life." but, I suspect some of the "maladaptive" reactiveness was, and/or has become, hard-wired. Best I can do is get better at managing the fall-out.