Thanks,

Two years ago I went to the doctors about it and he asked me about triggers etc, so I split up with my then boyfriend who wasn't a good guy and then was a lot better. Now I think the main triggers are my PhD, mortgage stresses and being treated like a housewife/slave by one of my housemates. This time I've got a fantastic boyfriend but he has told me he misses the old me and I think feeling depressed has changed me and I can't get back to how I was.

A long time ago my Mum had depression after my Grandad passed away she went through a terrible time, as did we all, but I can't see any other family links.

My anger is quite sporadic and even the smallest of things can set me off. Last night I decided to come on here to see how other people deal with it all after one of my episodes. Took the dog out for his night time wee and he wouldn't go for 40 minutes....my tiredness and anger sent me storming off to bed to cry. Generally anything could set me off, a bit like a ticking time bomb.

I think I will try and go to the GPs. It's difficult though to get time off work to go, and due to my PhD and job I know a lot of the doctors and employees of the hospitals down here and I'm worried what colleagues may think (which I know is silly).

I never thought about the possibility of another illness hiding behind depression, is there something else you thought it might be? I don't know much about this area,

Nerdosaurus x