No offense taken. I appreciate your advice and seeing though this is my first real relationship in eight years I am a bit inexperienced when it comes to some things even though Jessica and I were very mature for our ages when we were together and I learned a lot from Rachel. I guess there is some part of me that does want to have the same kind of relationship I had with Jessica with Mandy and it is hard not to but I know I can’t. That doesn’t mean we can’t have a relationship on the same level though but it has to be different and unique in its own way.

I don’t want to rush things but I think to some degree Mandy does. She is very forward and she told me today she wants to wants to have a baby before she turns thirty so I am under the impression that means she wants to have a baby with me in the next two years. I would love to have a kid with her because I think she would be a great Mother and I always wanted a daughter but I worry if a year or two (if we are still together then which I think we will be) is too early.

I think living together has really brought us closer together and it could be seen as an attribute if we go into marriage as many people don’t live with their partners beforehand so they don’t know what it is like to live with them and some (like a bloke I used to work with) get divorced because they can’t stand living with each other. Mandy and I love living together and everything has been great. I only asked her to move in so she would have a place to stay while she was looking for a house because she didn’t feel comfortable staying with her parents and now she wants to stay with me until we both move out. We have time to ourselves like now. I am on the computer while she’s watching TV and she goes out and hangs around with her friends while I work at my new job.

I have lived with two women already so I am probably more experienced in this field. Jessica and I would sleep over each other’s houses every night from when we were very little and we shared the same bed up until she passed away. Our parents didn’t mind because they trusted us. I also moved in with Rachel and lived with her up until she passed away but we were only friends. Mandy has only lived with one other bloke apart from her brothers. I know I shouldn’t be trying to force the name and I should just let it come natural but I only wanted to have one for her because she has one for me.