I wonder also if this about testing T to see if our need for touch is something she/he can survive. Infact if "we" can survive it. I wonder if not receiving the hug but talking it through would be more beneficial? I have the feeling that I would be somehow "disappointed" after the "hug", feeling that what I really am wanting has been "swept" away again, when really I want someone that Isn't' afraid of my desires and will sit with them rather than "play into" them? Sometimes what I think I want isn't. Theres more underneath I am wanting besides the actual physical contact.