Yes, but I already knew that. Why do I have to keep learning the same lessons over and over and over again?

And why do I seem to think I need to be super human?

That's a beautiful way to put a positive spin on things! You're right, he could have easily not talked this through with me last night. He could have bottled it up and that's the path to psychosis. He's very well aware that when he stops communicating, he doesn't get any feedback to counteract his odd thoughts.

Yes, we talked about friends last night too. He insists that everyone his own age takes drugs. Everyone apparently. Not possible to find a friend who's clean.

He asked me last night where he could meet friends who are fun and don't use drugs. I told my sister - the recovering alcoholic - about that this morning, and she jumped on it. She said that's exactly how she thought when she was drinking. All the fun people drink.

I also talked to him a bit about my lack of trust. My goal here is to get him on his feet and stable enough to move on with his own life - which includes making his own decisions. But I really don't trust him not to hook up with drug abusers as soon as he moves out of my house. That's what he did the last two times he got his own place - quit his meds and started abusing drugs and alcohol. Part of me wishes I could just let it go and let him have the consequences. But the consequence for my son is psychosis. And when someone is in psychosis they're not in control of their mind. You can't just say, "Well, you made your bed, now you'll just have to lie in it." At least I can't say that to my son.

I don't think I'll get that nap today. My son has a therapy appointment at 1 and a pdoc appointment at 6:30. No one to take him but me.