I didn't mean faking the whole thing, just to begin with as you said. Then sometimes I can get into the mood for it.

I'm not on any medication yet, i'm worried how it may affect my studies (which i know is insane because the depression is most likely to affect it). I'm just hoping with time and talking things out it will get better. I will really try and talk about it with him about it all when Im feeling a bit braver.