I have tried, but recently, it just doesn't seem to work. I'm just so upset about the disintegration of my realtionship that as I get closer to 'completion', I start thinking about how I'm frozen away from the one that I want the most. It doesn't help that when she was visiting her family this summer, (1000 miles away) she had sex with an old boyfriend. She's admitted it, and isn't particularly sorry, but because of the circumstances, (distance and pre-existing relationship) I'm not particularly worried about it happening again. Anyway, the combination of the two issues is driving me over the edge.