I'm thinking that i cant deal with the anti climax of a good weekend.
That Lactimal has made my mood more stable than its ever been in my life.
I have a weird void feeling.

Me and my best friend had a chat about bipolar last night, he told me he notices and tries his best to help me with the depression, but know he encourages the mania and that i wont notice this because he knows i find it so hard to talk about things and get my words out properly so he doesnt bring it up he just tries to help.
I explained how it feels like a daily battle and sometimes i feel so depressed i feel like i'm drowning.
He cried, i cried and now i'm worried things will be weird with stuff out in the open, because we've always had that, 'sweep anything difficult under the carpet,' relationship.

My whole family has been away for the weekend and i missed them, now they're home i just want to be on my own.