hi lance and welcome to pc.  you're brave and courageous to me...you put your thoughts out here at pc.
as i have grown older i find i use the wisdom of experience for when i pick my battles. HOWEVER, could you be experiencing job burnout and fatigue?
can you identify why you feel your opinion doesn't count or have value anymore? you're still that person that you feel you have lost...identifying the cause of your lack of self-esteem may help.
this article may assist you: http://www.mayoclinic.com/health/self-esteem/MH00129
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Do not let your fire go out, spark by irreplaceable spark, in the hopeless swamps of the approximate, the not-quite, the not-yet, the not-at-all. Do not let the hero in your soul perish, in lonely frustration for the life you deserved, but have never been able to reach. Check your road and the nature of your battle.
The world you desired can be won. It exists, it is real, it is possible, it is yours..~Ayn Rand
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