I am not living at my parents household after experiencing a side effect of Aderall that caused my to have an elevated in level of paranoia that caused me to suspect my wife of cheating and place spyware on her laptop. After 8 years of hell, she had enough. After 8 years of me denying my condition, along with a diagnosis of Alexithymia, She emotionally shutdown, I left the house to give her space, and now find myself still living at my parents as she finds herself again. I went into a hypomanic state, continuously blogging, nearly 4000+ words over the next week, learning about my Alexithymia. What I didn't realize was that I was also validating my Bipolar diagnosis.

My wife is an amazing woman who tried to help me for 8 years in realizing my afflictions. I denied them, fought them, experienced them, and imprinted my theory of mind on her. Eventually she became like me and I started to fight with myself.

She has totally shut me out. Does not want me to care for her, does not want to know anything about me. I do kind things for her, speak to her with respect and tenderness, and she tells me to leave her alone. We have a child together which I do not get to see and when his 3 year old voice gets on the phone, he cries for me to come home, or is asking me if I will be home in a while.

My wife claims that she needs emotional space. Doesn't know whether or not she want's to continue on with her marriage, and needless to say is keeping a family in limbo.

Can someone please provide me with an understanding of what she is going through, and I should deal with the feelings of abandonment and detachment from my family?