For me doing the mindfulness thing is VERY HARD! I just don't have the attention span it needs to be successful and I feel like I'm just not intune enough to really understand what it is I need to be mindful of. I often read others posts and feel so frustrated that I am not, after 2 years now in therapy, anywhere near where they seem to be. Some seem to have such a deep understanding of what has happened in their lives and have started to unravel it.... and I can hardly remember a thing, let alone begin to come up with an intellectual understanding of why I am what I am. Honestly, it's just recently that I started telling T anything- it's just so, so hard for me to do.

You're not a failure at all granite. You are, to me, a success because you tried and will contnue to try. I admire you and look up to you for your strength and courage to do what you know will be helpful for you.

((((((((((granite))))))))))