I'm having a lot of difficulty figuring out what my deal-breakers are. I'd certainly like to have someone with a career and who was gung-ho about marriage, but I don't know that's absolutely necessary for me to be happy. Ended the communication break today; it's been nice to have him back. We had an email exchange this week which didn't go too well though. I also wrote him a 10-page letter last night. That was brutal; my poor hand muscles. I could post that email, but basically I told him straight out that if he doesn't start respecting my feelings more, I can't stay in the relationship. Counseling session this morning felt really good, I really felt like we got somewhere this time. Which reminds me, I had better write him my weekly summary of it. I'm on Xanax tonight so I'm not feeling very typative. Haha, I just made up that word.