there was a person on the dr phil show with an eating disorder a single woman I think in her 20's living back with her parents and a teenage sister. I am a fat old lady so how could I relate, right? but this young lady and I went through every day the same way, ending up every night saying, TOMORROW we will start over and do it right, do it perfectly - just not TODAY. I told my therapist about it, how much it scared me, how much I was fooling myself. so now I am trying to do little things every day, and when I forget, and a few days go by and I am back to my old ways, I just start over again, I mean who cares, nobody is keeping score. sometimes I post on "what did you do right today" on this website, if I remember. I know meds will make me queasy too esp my potassium if there is nothing on my stomach or if I have not had enough water before bedtime I will wake up hallucinating. not fun.