I'm glad that, since you initially posted, you've been able to resolve a little bit going on in your head. Especially with your dysphoria revelation! But it does seem that you & your hubby really need to have an understanding sit-down once you ARE seeing a T & on your way to stability. What I've realized about spouses is that they go through the motions of bipolar just as often as they do. They see your behaviour or your lack thereof, they know something is wrong, & they have as little control over it as you do... Some people are more understanding than others. Some people get angry about what they can't seem to understand. But the case is usually that, when you can give them about as much time to voice their concerns as you get, it's easier for them to handle & fixes a lot of miscommunications. : )