First of all you're dissociating a part of yourself from yourself. Denying that it is yourself. It IS a part of yourself, even if it's hard for you to face (which it seems like it is).

Second, your T is a professional and has a professional relationship with you. Like any normal doctor would. I understand how you might get feelings for this person since you tell her your deepest darkest secrets and share your struggles with her like you can't anyone else, but at the end of the day, she is a health care professional paid to help you, and you are her client, who is seeking help.