Thank you, tigergirl, I post here often so I can process stuff and answer my own questions. It's easier than journaling and I get support at the same time. I have to keep in mind my T's reasons for my not posting, though. I have to learn to trust myself and not take all feedback personally if it doesn't fit.

I need what my T is giving me. I know she doesn't want me to try to figure it out. I don't know if talking about it helps me or not. What I want when I post is not to be alone with my feelings. I can't stand that and there's no one to talk to outside of PC. I can email my T but I already did that. I need to hear from people who understand. I hate to be alone with my feelings so that's why I'm obsessing about them and starting another thread. It's out of desperation to be understood, but sometimes I don't get that and I feel worse. My T said that we go backwards when I hear criticisms of the way she does therapy!