It definitely makes sense. You had something unexpected and traumatic happen to you, and you really had no control in the outcome. Plus, I think think your mother's death is also playing into it too. I'm sure this whole experience has rocked your world and changed the way you think about everything. Who wouldn't be depressed going through this and who wouldn't have anxiety coming out of it? I have PTSD and forget things with no explanation. I space off and am in my own world sometimes. No one gets any of this & I feel that society is very ignorant with these issues. If you don't have a therapist, find a good, compassionate one that you can develop a trusting relationship with. It really helps to talk about what happened in the past and what your fears might be for the future. It helps when you understand what you're going through and why, and by doing that you can help yourself in dealing with it in a more effective way. It's a long-term committment, but it's best to go and give it a try. You're not going crazy! I think the way you are feeling is almost natural from what you have gone through. Good luck & keep us posted!