I have had an excellent relationship with my therapist and I have made more progress with him in 6 months than any other mental health professional over the last 8 years.
We mainly talk about my sex addiction (I am a woman.)
I went in today for a regular session and I became full of fear. I have been sexually assaulted several times and I became terrified he would also do this. My feeling unsafe was not provoked by any inappropriate behavior.
He noticed immediately my discomfort and said I was highly dissociating. I couldn't think, let alone concentrate-- out of body. I felt completely helpless as he questioned me, as if any moment he was going to attack me. I told him i was uncomfortable but didn't get too specific. I started to cry. Leaving, I had a panic attack and was easily startled by noises and other cars.
He said I might be experiencing transference but I do not have feelings for him. I am scared to go back!
Did our sexual topic trigger a past trauma, causing projection?
Is my fear founded?
I feel crazy! Please, help