It's 3:30 am, i have not gotten any sleep yet. I just want a little bit of sleep.

I am having major anxiety about seeing my new pdoc today. I feel like it's not even worth wasting my time to go since my last pdoc told me there was nothing else they could do for me.

I don't know if it's the anxiety or another thing entirely, but i feel like i have electricity running through my arms and legs, which is just making me more anxious.

I really just want to cut. I want everything to just go away. I can't keep doing this, night after night.