Thank you, skysblue. I still feel pretty much alone with my feelings but in the end, each of us IS alone because we feel things differently. I woke up at 4 a.m. and started thinking those obsessive thoughts about my T. Then I forcefully told myself I was going to meditate--concentrate on my breathing, which I did, and I fell back asleep. I felt connected to my T in a more productive way because she wants me to use meditation when I'm anxious and/or overwhelmed.

I visualize my child part reaching up to grab her around her neck and holding on for dear life! I'm truly in uncharted waters with this therapy.