I am as baffaled with my situation as you are with yours. The only solice I get is with the thought that this is not a symptom of who I am, it is a medical problem. People deal with much more severe medical issues without feeling that they are usless as a person. Our medical situations don't make us useless either, nor does it mean we are less of a person than we used to be, even if we are able to do less than we used to do. I know that can be hard to believe at times, but that's a symptom of the disease too...