I don't think you are crazy, at least not more crazy than any of the rest of us who have been sexually assaulted, especially more than once. If you have a trauma history, then you are going to experience difficulty with being triggered by events and/or people that actually or symbolically remind you of what happened to you. What you experienced is totally normal. I am sorry, though, cause I know it stinks to feel that way.

I think that you are right, that you were triggered. Something he said or something your T did, perhaps as simple as his tone of voice in combination with a tiny hand movement (as an example). Can you pinpoint what happened just before you felt so much fear?

Anne