I posted something last month, but things haven't gotten better for me. I had a longtime girlfriend who I loved more than anything. I was going to propose to her, but then she left me. She left me. I thought I could get over this, but I don't think I can. Every day for me is a struggle. I want to die more than anything, but I can't commit suicide because of what it would do to my family and the fact I don't know what is on the other side. I'm so lonely, and it seems like nobody outside my family can ever love me. I did everything for her. I did everything I could for her. But I still wasn't good enough. This wasn't a bubble gum highschool relationship. I thought this was it. But she left me. I don't know how I can even meet anyone else. My life is in such a sad state right now, I'm just sick of dealing with it. I don't know what kind of advice I'm looking for, I just feel like there's nothing left for me to look forward to anymore. Everything I had is now gone.