I know, I asked my T a couple of years ago, If your own mother, the ONE person in the world whose job it is to like you, whose ONLY job is to like you, does NOT like you, what hope do you have???!!! He goes, -I- like you...

(It was like that scene in Bye Bye Birdie, where Paul Lynde's son says, "I respect you, Pa," and Pa says, "I don't want your respect!")

It just takes a while to replace that cold unloving voice from the past in your head, with the warmth, love and happiness a T and PC can put in your heart. The more you give here, the more you will get back.