I know she's capable. She'd one of the only people who've quite impressed me as much as she did. And I'm a stickler! (I mean this in a non-transference way).

I know what I'm afraid of... I'm afraid of opening these parts to me that she already knows because I've told her.... But letting her see how much it affects me, as I tend to shrug things off. And I'm afraid of being THAT vulnerable with her, and then watching her 'give up' on me.
I can't take someone giving up on me now... I'd be insufferable.