To answer some of your questions. He has kind of always been a night owl, but he has always told me he would work on that, he has, but it only lasts about a week, then he back to being up all night. he didn't really drink before the army. He didn't see war, but I think the deployment with all his single buddies around had him used to doing what he wanted when he wanted, and all there was to do there, was drink with friends. It's not that he drinks that often, but when he does, he has to get drink. he's more of a binge drinker. i know when he's had one too many because he gets very moody and lashes out at me emotionally. It's hard.
to answer the question about whether or not there is anyone to help with the kids, the answer is no. we only have one car, and our family lives 2 hours away, so it's just meand the kiddos mosrt days. I'm starting to feel like i don't have a husband, it feels more like he's a visitor in our home, that's how little i see him.