Thanks Rose. yeah i got confused with what my boyfriend said but i understand it too. I haven't focused much on the dissociation though, i know i'm me but i do note space times in my head in many events (car driving, talking with ppl, by myself, at work. Etc). Also neglecting to tell full truth. It's like i forget stuff not trying to lie but i look back and part of me get's mad and is like i did lie cause how could i forget? I did asked about my love and hate and don't know till we get more into me :-P idk i think i may take some of the tests in and ask if they have their own to try to help with what to do with me. Idk today i've felt like why am i trying. I'm upset that i have tried myself so long and finally go in some where and it'll be so quick that i'm not sure if it'll help but my boyfriend says i'll get something out of it i'm feeling better about it right now but then again it's an up and down day today :@