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Old Feb 09, 2004, 02:59 PM
kittykat kittykat is offline
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Hi
New to this board. Been depressed for so long I don't know what normal is. I was in the hospital 3 or 4 times last year and meds did not help me. However, I did get some of my housing straightened out and that was one less stressor for me. I stopped taking meds altogether and now I have started back on Serzone, low doses, which I had in the past which worked well but started having visual problems when the stress increased and the dose increased.

Forgive me for being disjointed about the way I am posting. When I am "normal" my mind is pretty sharp and I can concentrate well.

Anyway, is there a place you can post about spirituality? It seemed I was doing pretty well with my faith and then things seemed to go from bad to worse. So my faith is not too strong right now. There is a church, nondenominaal, Unity out of Kansas City with churches all over the US and the world. They teach positiveness and the love of God and His will for you is good. They are pretty good at giving your inspiration. Such as "Major change takes time. Do not be surprised by setbacks." I found this very encouraging but the depression has gotten so bad and painful I feel totally immobilized and my faith has taken a nosedive.

I have been taking my meds for a little over a week now (I know it takes 4-6 weeks to get effect) but I have had some moments where, since taking them, I feel "normal" and capable of being a human being. The feelings I get from this is that my brain chemistry is somehow messed up, and that the normal feelings I get from the meds makes me feel it is definitely a chemistry problem in the brain.

I really like your board, there are a lot of warm and very intelligent people here. So would really like to hear from you.