Hi Gma45 - You are correct, I am diagnosed with depression and am seeing both a counselor and psychiatrist. Somehow they don't really seem to comprehend this feeling that I try to explain....maybe I really can't explain it correctly. I don't feel like I'm putting others' first...just the opposite...by doing nothing, I feel like I'm putting myself first. Shutting down keeps me from doing things...I am not doing much of anything to help the people that could use it. The "I don't care" feeling interferes way too much. I don't really want to do anything...unless there is a definite need for it. To most it would look like I am 100% lazy, but I really don't think that is what it is, but then sometimes I wonder. I just don't know what I feel anymore...but I really do thank you for commenting. Take care of yourself.

Blessing ~