Hi Marenita - Thanks for your reply and good wishes. I agree that "this feeling" is not uncommon, but I wish I could understand it better. I've been in therapy with counselors and psychiatrists for 36 year (plus every type of medication they could and can try) and although I have had some help, it rarely stays for any period of time. I want to feel good so that I can reach others who are in this same situation. I want to give back so that others can receive hope and encouragement from someone who has genuinely "been there" and back. I feel so confused right now between the depression and the sadness with my parents. I know that God has a plan for all of us, but I guess I just don't understand the plan. I am very much alone in this journey and I am scared...certainly not the strong lady I used to me. I guess I must just continue taking it one minute at a time. Thanks again for the kind words. Take good care of yourself.

Blessings ~