Yack,

I can completely understand where you are right now. It is exactly where I was last year at this time. My Mother was dying from vulvar cancer & being an only child even though I am 53, I had no support from anyone. The stress was so bad that I ended up fealing nausea constantly & couldn't get any food or liquids down. My GP put me into the hospital & was in there mostly on than off for about 2 months with $60,000 of tests done to find out if there was something physical causing my loss of weight (93 lbs) ab 5 foot 2".

Stress causes me to feel so much nausea that I can't stand to eat because I hate to throw up. I had been with my Mother the evening before my GP put me into the hospital for Anorexia (just massive weight loss actually but they called it Anorexia). I got a call in the hospital the next morning that my Mother had died 2 hours after I had left her. I was stuck in the hospital very ill & had to arrange the funeral from the hospital. The hospitals Pdoc (the hospital had no psych department so used an outside pdoc & psychologist) threatened to put me on a 72 hour hold just before the funeral & my GP let me go AMA without letting the hold be put on in order to go to the funeral.

It is a horrible feeling to be so stressed that your stomach hurts so bad that the pain is so bad you can't eat, but it happened to me just last year, & I am still struggling with my weight because of the PTSD that came from the ID theft that the home care RN pulled on my mother in just 5 days & all the threats I got to back off from doing the police report on her. That fear is pretty much gone now, but the nightmares & flashbacks of both the ID theft & 1 1/2 months of being with my Mother 24/7 watching her get worse hourly. It is not something that is easy to control......one thing I did find is that my weight would go up some if I found something mild I could eat (oatmeal cookies).....but you are right, 91 is too light weight. I had one time before this when my depression first hit after loosing my career & my identity.....I ended up at 83 lbs & a year of in & out of the hospital with a central line & what they call the TPN nutrients that they would keep going for about a week. It would add weight & then as soon as I got home, the weight would just vanish again until the next time I would pass out & it would end up going through the same thing all over.

Please take care of yourself & follow your Dr's advice even though it can be hard to want to go through it all.......hopefully you will be able to get your stress under some control if you can get help with that with a psychologist or someone that you can confide your feelings with. It doesn't go away that quickly & it is difficult to go through.

If you feel that PM'ing me might help since I have gone through very similar situations, I will be glad to try to listen & help as much as possible. Sometimes it helps to open up on a one to one basis.....although I know you don't know me at all.

I will be praying that you will be able to get your stresses handled, but while you are going through them, it is hard & it does help to know you have a Dr that is caring & wanting to help you......but if you feel that PM'ing might help with someone that has & is going through a very similar mental & physical situation, I will be more than happy to listen & share with you.

Take care,
Debbie