Hiya all,

Yesterday I found out my school loans may not hit my account for up to 30 more days. I was counting on this money for a various number of things. It sent me into suicidal crisis mode. I survived, thank God. Just called everybody I could and put myself to bed to avoid doing anything stupid. Without my school loans I can't file for bankruptcy and the calls just keep coming. I'm way too stressed to be doing work and school both full time. I'm managing addiction, eating disorders, and severe mental illness. I can't cope anymore. I want to give up.

Love and Hugs,
Tara

P.S. I looked for a different attorney and found one who is supposed to call me today. I took the chapter 7 means test and qualify to file. The average one person household in California makes $44,000. I make about half that...so yeah i qualify. i also have negative disposable income. I was hoping i could get help from the drug companies in buying my Adderall but no go.