Yes, for me it is a positive thing. For the most part I think I am about as comfortable with being DID as you can be.
Other than the occasional stray mood swing from T I have the best treatment team I could imagine. OK, I could imagine any, or dare I say it... all of them taking my insurance... that would make it better... but... I've got them.
The first T I had that figured out I was DID didn't tell me, learned the names of the parts and played god over my world... It was ugly. So, now there is a good interrelationship between my parts (even if I am not kept in the loop) that helps keep us more safe.
My current treatment team (T, Pdoc & massage T) is somewhat detached from outcomes... They are mostly of the opinion that I am a 34 year old single mom of a very difficult adoptive child and am successful despite my various labels. They are here to help and support but don't see any point in "fixing" things that are not causing me hardship. So, where I ask for help they are there, they occasionally point things out that I may not be seeing but ultimately everything is up to me.
Massage T spent over a year of weekly sessions just inviting Elestial to come to our sessions. Massage T caught Elestial poking her head out once just checking things out April/May of last year. Massage T was sure to ask how Elestial was and see if she needed anything until a couple of weeks ago with no response. She never gave up, never got frustrated, never pushed, just made sure she acknowledge Elestial every session.
I also have a 4 legged treatment team/support crew. Omi (cat) takes the night watch, DC (cat) takes the day watch, Emma (cat) is afraid of most of the parts (but then she is afraid of everything except food), Grace (dog) provides unconditional positive regard and Jazz (horse)... well, Jazz would just need her own thread to explain... she is awesome.
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There’s been many a crooked path
that has landed me here
Tired, broken and wearing rags
Wild eyed with fear
-Blackmoores Night
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