Hi Elysium.......AJ has an alarm clock.. And it is still "blasting" when I knock on his bedroom door.. I do the "normal, nice" knock first.. When I get no response, I do the "banging loud" knock and even sometimes that doesn't work, but when I turn that door knob, seems he jumps right up.. and says "i'm up"....

AJ is being responsible for AJ.. He is not tied to my apron strings.. And I don't take care of AJ... AJ is working and paying for his car and paying bills.

How do I benefit or what do I get out of "making breakfast" for AJ.. Guess I look at it like this ---- When my mom would visit me, she'd always have dinner on the table when I got home from work. She'd clean the refrig... sweep a floor --- she'd even "holler" at me at times...... Even when I wasn't working, she'd always make dinner.. She did not have to... I did not ask her.... She did it because that is what she does..and it kept her busy....

The only thing I do for AJ is make sure AJ is up and about and I make breakfast. I do it because I want to. Guess that is my answer...

As for the psycho type day, "the other day"... well guess that happens sometimes. Can't say I understand why it happened, only can say "it happened" and today is a new day...

AJ called me yesterday afternoon and said "mom, I love you".. I said AJ, are you ok? Did something happen? He said he was ok and that he was thinking how he reacted that morning and he said he was very sorry. He voice was cracking and he was "sniffling"... He said he didn't know why he got so angry at me. And he just wanted me to know he was sorry and that he loved me...... He said he is changing and can see now how he can be hurtful and he doesn't want to be that way anymore. ...................This is why I do what I do.. My reward is seeing AJ grow to being a better person.... ANd seeing him happy..........

Oh just wanted to add this. LOL.. Mom did not like dogs in the house.. Anyway, when I was married I had a pug. AJ's dad would toss food under the table for the dog, knowing that mom would get on my case and start hollering "don't you know better than to throw food on the floor".. She'd get so mad at me... ANd AJ's dad would be laughing so hard... Was a dirty trick indeed.. lol..... deliberate too....Although AJ's dad only saw the humor in it, it happened....... Life isn't perfect... We somehow survive