Learning how to be alone is really tough. My roommate is confronting the issue right now, someone else's roommate on this board is trying to confront it too, and I have personally had to confront it myself in the past. It's not easy.

I am cautious to tell you that you just have to learn how to be independent and alone, because that is an American value, and I'm not sure what your cultural background is or anything like that. But I would say to try and further develop a life that is meaningful to you, whether that includes others or not.

If you're not in counseling already, I would suggest starting on that first. Find a good therapist that you click with, even if you have to shop around for a liittle while. It sounds like you have a good idea of some of your issues (eg: developmental needs) and I suspect you would be a great candidate for therapy if you're not in there already.

Good luck and keep us posted.