i believe humans have (all of them) some self-destructive mechanism installed in them.

we just need to recognize it and fight against it... not that i don't enjoy being irrational at times... but one has to know when they are crossing the line. I try not to do things that will harm others... for me that is matter of human decency... on the other hand, if it is just about me... that is my decision and i prefer if others don't tell me what to do. I sometimes need to feel danger... and as I say, I have to die of something. And i prefer not to die of boredom.

but it is about finding the balance... don't suppress yourself...but don't do things that will harm you too much in long term.