Oh Milly,

There are things that are said many times.......you are not responsible for what someone does......remember it is their choice to do what they do & you did not cause it to happen. You are not guilty of anything.

The important thing for you right now is to have a professional that can help you talk through your feelings, thoughts, & what happened so that you are able to put your friends reaction into the proper perspective. Everyone makes their own choices in what they do in their life......everyone is only responsible for their own life, what they do & how they react to something.

Find a good psychologist or someone like that to talk it through with & they can help you sort through your thoughts......& hopefully we can help you here as much as possible until you can get the professional help you truly need right now.

Take care of yourself & don't stop loving yourself......you didn't do it,
Debbie