So i had to sit and think about this. This year has been really stressfull (Both of my parents have died, I am starting a new job, my husband is getting ready to deploy again for another year, I will be a single parent in the meantime). I have been good about not SI'ing but it is becoming difficult. I signed myself up for jiu jitsu. I will be the only woman. I can let someone else beat me up instead of me doing it to myself. Sad but effective.

Insecurity