To be honest, I have not been at all open with my pdoc. His psychotherapy every 3-4 months is the only treatment I am currently receiving beyond meds. The thing is I'm not feeling bad. I use the alcohol and the other sources of pain to cancel out the physical pain I am already feeling. Sometimes I do get down, and that's when I crawl into the bottle of a whiskey bottle. But this weekend, for example, I was home and excited to see everyone and feeling awesome, so I drank the majority of a half gallon of whiskey and didnt even realize it.
I'm so torn as to what issues I am facing. I've only been diagnosed with BP and have not been open enough with any of my therapists so far as to let them now the other things going on in my head. My plan is to get my money's worth this next visit, and unload the whole ugly truth to my pdoc. I'm just afraid he'll think this all just happened overnight and want to up my meds or something and that's something I'm not ok with