Rainbowz, I read this last night and couldn't absorb it all. You have written your story, I am not sure if you know what an amazing accomplishment that is. You articulated in such a way that I could know your pain. I can hold some of it for you, maybe we all can because it is past and we can be sad for your past and excited for your future. Your story is your history. I am looking forward to what comes next. I am so sorry for all of that pain.

On another note, I am a pacifist and I find it difficult to not want to find your father and "Take care of him". May his eternity be the hell he has created.