She emailed me that she's back in town and said we'd talk about that email and the others on Tuesday.

Well, I didn't expect anything more, but I had to email back how I know she doesn't do therapy via email and how I'm going to fantasize about what I wrote, over and over unless I can visualize my Self and my T holding that child. And that it hurts!! I wrote that I know "all parts are welcome."

Oh, I wish she had at least answered that I'm not bad for writing what I did. Her one boundary is that she won't discuss therapy in the emails!! She thanked me for sending her photos of my day trip, though! She's sticking to her boundary! I'm glad in a way because she changes her mind about other things.

So, how do I survive with what I wrote, until Tuesday???????? Anyone?????? Sorry to be a pest. I know: distract, comfort myself, etc.
Please NO ONE write that she's only my T and I'm her client. If I see that, I'm going to smash my computer, and I'm half serious about it.

On Tuesday I can talk for the whole session about that child who wants T to be Mommy. I have to wait until then.

Well, at least I have feelings now!!!!