You may find this helpful: http://www.byregion.net/articles-hea...pegoating.html

How old are you? Can you see a psychotherapist?

Your father sounds like a violent person and I would not risk just taking advice from us on this forum. I'm glad you are taking the first step by talking about it here, but I think you need to take it further or else you run the risk of something worse happening. Please protect yourself.