Please take your meds, and keep the structure in your life. Structure has helped me, and that means getting my sleep at any cost. If you don't sleep, your mind will crumble. Even a normal person will start to hallucinate and go crazy without sleep, and you are doubly at risk with bipolar.

Getting high just adds to the mess. And remember the ups feel good, but you will crash, and no one wants to be depressed, right?