My T and I always talk about how I feel when she goes on vacations because she knows how difficult it is when she goes away. That's one reason I bought the 2 bears, so I could take hers home to be with mine when she goes away.

Last Monday, even though I knew I wouldn't miss a session, I was anxious because she was going away for a few days. I think that's why she let me hold her hand and we did a lot of breathing to get me to calm down.

I hate when she goes away more than missing a session because I worry that something will happen to her. That's silly because most accidents happen close to home.

My T will tell me where she's going and she'll email me when she gets back. We talk about how to make it easier but there are no easy answers to abandonment issues. She tells me that she will be back but I know there are no guarantees in life. So far, she's always come back though.

Sorry I reread this and it's kinda depressing. Reflecting on my mood, I guess.